Need you now

Having someone wonder where you are when you don't come home at night is a very old human need.  ~Margaret Mead

I think that everyone wants to feel needed even if they deny it. I know that I have a huge heart that always feels the need to give. Today, I did an exercise in my psychology class where we imagined a house - what it looked like, how it felt looking around this house, etc. - and then we described a secret room within that house. I won't get into detail about what the house looked like or anything, but this exercise really made me think. You're probably wondering what this even has to do with anything I am writing about. From what people responded, it seemed like my description of the house and secret room really described who I am. I am always trying to be positive even when I am having a bad day. I remain positive in every situation (even if it may not look like it), but tend to hold back my negative feelings. I need to learn how to process my negative emotions so that they do not build up on me. The problem I have with processing my negative emotions is that I do not want to bring anyone else down in the process and cause them to have a bad day or any negative emotions. I try to do anything I can for others so that they are not upset or do not feel like they are alone. I know that I do not want to feel like this way so why should anyone else have to? This is why I always want to feel like people need me in their lives. To me, this demonstrates that I am wanted and needed to someone because they need me and want me in their lives. I want to be need because it gives my a sense of purpose in life. Not only do I strive to do the best for my family, but my friends really mean a lot to me. I want to help others and I want to give them advice. My downfall, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, is that I want to help people so much that I would literally do anything to fix them. I want to be the one who helps a person because I know at the end of the day I did what I was meant to do and really helped someone. I love everyone (yes, i may have some negative attitudes towards others, but I still feel for them) and strive to do whatever I can to help someone out. Not a day goes by that I do not want to be needed. Like I said before, it makes me feel like I am wanted and fulfills my purpose in life. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind being by myself or alone at some times, but I have an extreme desire for people to need me or want me around. It makes me feel valuable and wanted.